Written by Mathew Naismith
I awoke during the night holding my hand
out; this is of course no big deal. What was a big deal was what I perceived or
envisioned that I was holding in my hand in awe, the entire existence as a
whole. The wonderment I experienced wasn't just to do with what I was holding;
it was to do with how the entire existence exists.
One simply creates the other, for example,
bad creates good, negative creates positive, awareness creates unawareness, dark
creates light and of course visa-versa. There was no perception that one was
above another. That some almighty high level of consciousness resides as an
ultimate state over all other states. What was obvious is that existence was of
the ego and non-existence was egoless.
However, what's in observation of existence?
What is the observer's state of consciousness to all other states of
consciousness? As I was doing, I was in observation of existences as a whole. It
was like observing a singular organism in motion with itself. It seemed
to be important for me to perceive the whole existence as a singular organism,
more importantly, an organism in motion with itself.
From an ego point of view, this observing
state of consciousness is going to be desired to be the ultimate state over all
other states. To do this, the ego has to put this state above all other states.
The ego does this in different ways through the perception of God, light and
love, some perceived ultimate state or however the ego desires to perceives
this state to be. Don't get me wrong here, it's good that the ego does this; at
least this gives the ego a perception of something more than an existence of
ego. The organism in motion with itself is simply pure ego.
What is in observation of the entire ego
existence, this singular organism in motion with itself, is a state void of the
ego. This gives the perception, from an ego point of view, of a non-existence. As
you could imagine from an egoless point of view, this is clearly not the case.
Existence is of both ego and egoless states of existence. Just because one is
of observation void of participation, void of the ego therefore motion, doesn't
mean the observer doesn't exist!!
Being the observer observing the entire ego
existence, isn't in observation of the entire existence when excluding
observing the observer as well. Within my own actions here, I am also observing
the observer in observation of the ego's existence. In other words, I have
observed all of existence by observing the ego's existence, the participator,
and the egoless existence, the observer in observation.
My ego wishes it could remember the dream
that incited my experience here; it was not to be........
I decided to look up on related topics and
came up with the following.
http://schaechter.asmblog.org/schaechter/2016/05/how-all-living-things-are-connected-in-an-exam.html
