This Is What I Am Seeing

Written by Mathew Naismith

Yes, how many different and numerous desires are out there at present, from materialism to spirituality? So which ones should control and replace all other desires? Of course the answer is my desire should....!!

What we desire the reality to be at present and in the future, is often in contradiction to the natural cycles at play. Basically, our desires represent the small picture and natural cycles depict the big picture. It is natural for a consciousness that lives in ignorance, especially in deliberate ignorance, to be destructive and chaotic in the absence of love. This simply depicts the abuse of energy. 

In saying this, it is also natural for a consciousness that is aware to be constructive and harmonious in the presence of love. Within this, one works in harmony with all energy, be it perceived as negative or positive. Certainly not in deliberate ignorance of one undesired energy in favour of a desired energy.

Even though there are a lot of people still primarily focusing on their own desires, probably more so than ever in human history, there are a lot of people who are aware how to work in harmony with all energies in the absence of bias (desire). I predict the next evolutionary human conscious cycle will be of working in harmony with all energy. Often at the end of each cycle, parts of the next cycle are present at the end of the previous cycle.

Yes, we often desire positive energy to negative energy, which is like and in line with separating parts of consciousness we desire to be of, while discarding parts of consciousness we don't desire to be of. The division of consciousness simply serves to control and replace undesired through domination of the desired. This doesn't sound too much like the next predicted cycle that human consciousness is suppose to evolve into. Look at how Iran and Russia are being singled out, deliberately separated from the rest of the world controlled and dominated by lustful desiring people. I think if Russia in particular can hold out against such lustful desires, evil if you like, the next evolutionary cycle of human consciousness will occur.

We often look at Russia as being evil, when they are not the one's trying to dominate the rest of the world based purely on self-serving lustful desires. So it is less evil allowing the people of Yemen to be purposely starved to death, or, allowing the harsh persecution of Palestinians under a Zionist controlled regime. I find it far more evil when people deliberately ignore the negatives in the world to become and stay positive, especially to simply fulfil their desires.

We will in the end enter into the next cycle, be it at a much later date in time it would seem.

Ego-Natural Flow of Life

Written by Mathew Naismith

Going with the natural flow of life, the natural flow of water, in the absence of control of life, of the water, that we are all presently experiencing and a part of, no matter how much we desire to separate ourselves from this natural flow.

The natural flows actually refers to all motion, the ego, in the absence of a controlling ego. Of course the ego in control often desires to be separate itself from natural flow, to an ego not having the desire of desiring to control the flow of life/water.

There are people, like my wife and I, who simply go with the flow within the present, whatever that flow may be in the absence of a controlling ego. The ego in control doesn't gently flow, it often turns the water, life, into a torrent, recreating a desired flow often in opposition to the natural flow. As of torrents, often a different direction is enforced by the force emitted by desires, desires to enforce a different direction of flow of life/water. This is instead of calming the present waters of life that are often deemed negative, most likely because they don't fulfil our desires or what we demand life to be.

The natural flow of life, the ego, isn't there for our pleasures, it is simply there to experience. Yes, within this natural flow, life won't always be rosy (positive), but the ego in control demands that life must serve it's desires, which means that life has to be always pleasurable to the ego.

People like me simply don't expect or demand of life, of the present flow of water, that we must feel pleasurable all the time. We certainly don't try to separate one part of consciousness from the rest of consciousness so we can fulfil the controlling egos desires.

As of life, human consciousness, presently controlled by the ego in control, we must also go with this flow, while not becoming of what this flow represents, the desire to fulfil our desires at any cost. Would a responsible parent allow their badly behaved child go on being badly behaved to fulfil one's own pleasures? So why ignore the negatives in the present flow of water to fulfil our own desires of demanding to feel good all the time? As the badly behaved child will only become worse in their behaviour when their behaviour is ignored, so will the collective consciousness.  

Yes, the natural flow of water isn't always a comfortable temperature, but we really shouldn't demand more of life than what is to fulfil what our ego in control desires. Anything beyond of what the natural flow of what is, is something else than natural.....            

We Know Not What We Do

Written by Mathew Naismith

These kinds of things simply come to me without exerting any effort; it's simple because there is no effort involved. I think the people who experience this as well will know exactly what I mean; it flows because you are going with the flow.

I don't always go with the flow; this is because I accept that being a part of a reality like ours, going against the flow is a part of this reality. However as of always, balance between going with the flow and against it is always a wise thing to do; everything in moderation no matter how good or right it feels.

The whole self = Our natural flow

Part of the whole self, our present reality = A flow that goes against the natural flow

A thing to consider here, is going against the flow of a reality that goes against the natural flow going against the flow of that reality? Yes, this reality is a tiny part of who we are as a whole, the whole self is of a natural flow, are not realities that are of going against this natural flow also of this natural flow?

How we think is one is against the other; if it's against the natural flow, it's in opposition to the flow. In the whole scheme of existence, there is no opposition as it's all a part of the same natural flow no matter how small that flow might be. Our present reality is a small part of the natural flow even when going against the natural flow of life. Is a fish swimming against the flow of water; not of the natural flow of the life of the water; when the fish goes against the flow of water? Are we not the fish within the water, within a particular reality like the fish!!

We simply don't think like the fish, we think more like a rock when going against the flow, in opposition to the flow. Instead of allowing ourselves to go with the flow, we are like a rock trying to swim like a fish in opposition the flow when acting/thinking like a rock. It's unnatural for a rock to go against the flow like this; we have simply forgotten we are the fish when swimming against the flow, not the rock.

The rock is in opposition when going against the flow, the fish isn't, which reality do we want to experience, the fish or the rocks reality? If it's the fish, we can go against the flow without being in opposition to the flow, if the rock, we must go with the flow at all times otherwise we are in opposition to the natural flow.

What occurred recently is I experienced a glimpse of what we are doing to ourselves. By being the rock while in opposition to its environment, mainly because we desire control of this environment to feed our desires, we have become the rock in opposition to the natural flow of life. A rock going against its environment will be destructive and disruptive to its environment; the natural flow of life, what the rock going against the flow isn't aware of is it's simply hurting itself immensely by doing so.

Being the rock in opposition to its own environment is going to lead to what it's always lead to, its own destruction. Of course any energy source in opposition to its own environment causing its own demise is a part of the natural flow of life also. If we are going to continually act like a rock going against the flow, we will naturally cause our own demise, however, if we choose to be a rock going with the flow or become the fish instead, we will be naturally going with the flow of life.

I chose to be the fish swimming against the flow at times, other people have chosen to be a rock going with the flow and many more people have chosen to be the rock in opposition to the flow. No matter what we choose to be it's all a part of the natural flow of life, it's just everything we choose to be has its own journey to ride out. Yes, the outcome of each journey is different but it still finishes up being a part of the natural flow of life no matter what journey we choose to follow.

It simply came to me, if we really knew what we do, we simply wouldn't do it; we simply wouldn't be the rock in opposition to the natural flow of life. How aware is the rock to its environment compared to the fish? We simply need stop being the rock in opposition, stop thinking in opposition like positive and negative being in opposition to each other all the times for only a rock in opposition to the flow can think like this.

Is a fish going against the flow judging the water negative while swimming against it?  Only a rock going in opposition to the flow could think like this.......

Ego Mind, A Natural Phenomena

Written by Mathew Naismith

As of many posts I've written in the past have been controversial for a lot of people, this post is no different. It's not that I am trying to be controversial or argumentative, it's just what comes to and through me, I must write it as it is, or, not write it at all which has occurred a number of times before. Actually, this post was nearly one of those times where I thought twice about sharing what came to and through me. 

What is channelled through me is often confirmed by what comes to me afterward, especially when I don't write down what comes through me in the first place. It's like being whispered to by what comes through me, if I don't listen, I am then yelled at by what comes to me. For three day I was not going to write what was coming through me until it got to the stage of repeatedly being yelled at. As the whispers are of the inner environment, the yelling is of the external environment.

Not one of us within this existence wants to be aware of their so-called higher self; this is obvious within their own participation within realities like this one. Even if you got to this so-called higher state, you still wouldn't want to know who you truly are, in actuality, you feel and know that the last thing you want to become aware of or be, is this higher self. All you feel is just being in the present; of course if the ego mind doesn't like the present, it tries to change it. If the ego mind is existing in a destructive existence, it naturally wants to change the environment it's existing in.

Yes, the ego mind is a natural phenomenon with natural tendencies that often has a need to change its environment in accordance with its own desires. We are presently apart of this phenomena, in the very present this is who we are, of course the ego always desires to be more like more aware than present circumstances permit or encourage. On the other hand, the present extremes encourage the ego mind to change its present environment. It's always the ego mind that desires change, the divine mind only lives within the present the way it is, void of control of its environment or desires to be of another environment.

What I am saying is the ego mind is just as worthy as the divine mind in an existence that is hell bent on destroying itself. The divine mind just sits there within this environment where's the ego mind often has a need, as opposed to desire, to change this or their own environment to something more constructive. To put it simply, the ego mind is a natural phenomenon and should be treated in accordance to its natural state. As the divine mind is natural, so is the ego mind, it's wise not to separate these two very natural phenomena's, especially by judging one an illusion and the other not an illusion.

Yes, the ego mind can be extreme within it's delusions but when expressed in less controlling ways, the ego mind can be electrifyingly beautiful and peaceful in accordance with the whole environment. The more control, we express, the more of the delusion we become, in effect, the more the reality becomes an illusion in many people's eyes. The ego mind will see anything that it no longer wants to be apart of as just an illusion, the controlling ego is very tricky like this.

The ego mind desires to be apart of a grander existence, it will convince itself that it is only apart of a grander existence like being of pure awareness, a God, divine spirit, nothingness and so on. If we were created from nothingness or divine spirit like a God for example, why are we experiencing what we are presently experiencing? We are supposed to be fallen angles or of an ego based consciousness, to me they are one of the same. If you truly comprehend this divine egoless higher state, there is no way you could fall from this state. You could say that everything is of God's consciousness; this just doesn't include the divine mind but the ego mind as well.

The divine mind, as well as the ego mind, is of this divine state, it's all a divine state of existence, even when we express states of being unaware. When the ego mind becomes predominantly controlling over its environment, this is when states like this become less of the divine nature, it doesn't mean it's no longer of the divine nature, at no point is this the case. We are in effect of this grandness that our ego mind desires to be, but this also includes this grandness being of the things that are not so grand to the ego mind as well, our present existence is a prime example of this.

An aware state of being is just as worthy as an unaware state of being, there is no separation for one is of the other, its just the ego mind judges one more worthy than the other because one is more grandiose than the other. Instead of just existing in the present, the ego mind desires more, especially if in the present the ego mind has little control, is unaware or simply desires a better existence for itself. 

When we allow the ego mind to convince us that only this grandiose state of divine energy of pure awareness is who we are, we are truly only aware of apart of ourselves as whole self. This is the same when the ego keeps us in an unaware state of existence, in this state we are again only aware of one part of the whole self, becoming aware of the aware and unaware part of oneself is who we are as a whole. We are not just one or the other, w are all of what is, this includes our present state.

I've spoken with a number of people recently that think control is the answer or we are only of this grandiose state of pure awareness. It is obvious that certain people will not be convinced otherwise to their own convictions; I am certainly not trying to do this, I am only expressing a different aspect to life that could be life changing.

The point is; why isn't all this praying for peace and love working?

As I discussed with an 80+ year old yoga teacher last night that's in to all the aspects of yoga, not just the physical exercise, counteracting one extreme with another is giving these extremes we are counteracting against more power because we are putting more emphasis and more energy into these extremes. The ego mind has us convinced light and love is the ultimate answer, it is obvious it's not because man is becoming more destructive, not less. If light and love, for example, is suppose to be so powerful over the dark in the world, it would instantly quell the dark. What is happening instead is the dark is growing, not shrinking obviously because of our counteractions against it. One point to make here, where is the living in the present by expressing extremes to destroy another extreme?

We have allowed the ego mind to control us to the point of thinking that we can only be of something grandiose. As of our present existence, it quite clearly shows people like me that we are of all aspects of the whole self; this also includes not being aware and even being fully controlled by the ego mind. If you truly comprehend our whole being, there is no way we cannot express or be what we are not apart of. The natural tendencies of the ego mind are to convince us otherwise when in a controlling mode. When the ego isn't in this controlling mode, it's something very few of us can comprehend in the present. Like I stated earlier, the ego mind can be electrifyingly beautiful and peaceful, we just need allow our divine mind to give the ego mind a more balanced perspective, void of trying to control or destroy anything else.