A Reaction to the Egos Abusive Manner

Written by Mathew Naismith

What is the point of people like me doing what we are doing, going beyond human and even soul perspectives and perceptions? In actuality going beyond perceptions and perspectives all together, for only can perceptions and perspectives exist through our egos.

The point is, in a reality where the ego has become highly abusive to energy as a whole, balancing this out with the non-ego (egoless) part of all of us seems like the wise thing to do. In actuality, people like me are simply a reaction to an action hell bent on abusing energy.  It's not a counterreaction where a response is in opposition to an action, it is simply a reaction to the abuse of energy, especially when so many people want and even need to find an answer to our abuse of energy as a whole. In truth, to find an answer to the counteractive response of an abused energy. Make no mistake, an abused energy is in counteraction to the abuse it has received from the ego in control.

As I have stated in a previous post, the ego can never experience actual enlightenment, all that the ego can do is become aware that the egoless part of ourselves is of this enlightenment. The ego simply becomes aware of the egoless part of ourselves being enlightened, thus giving a perception that the ego has become enlightened. Yes, the ego becomes aware but not to the point of enlightenment, for the ego is unable to exist within an enlightened state for there is no ego in this state. Imagine ignorance existing in the same space of pure awareness, it is impossible unless the ignorance becomes aware of it's enlightened self. The last thing the ego in control desires to do is become this aware, however, the ego that isn't in control, in other words the ego that is simply being of the ego without being controlling, can become aware of it's own enlightened self.

At no time separate the ego and egoless self though, the desire to be only of the egoless self is purely of a controlling ego, for only the ego in control desires this much control and stature over and above the ego. Why have so many of us humbled ourselves to the ego? Why does the ego even exist when our egoless selves are so enlightened? Because the egoless self doesn't desire to be only of some kind of higher stature, the egoless self is aware it is all of what the ego is as well as what the non-ego is.

So what's my point? To keep in balance between the ego and non-ego, in other words work in unison with the energies and creations of the ego as well as the non-ego. As I stated in a previous post, there is nothing wrong with materialism, it is simply that we abuse materialism as our controlling egos do of any energy. Yes, balance materialism with spirituality. Become aware that our controlling egos will be abusive to energy if there is no balance.

To become too spiritual in a material (physical) world is also an abuse of energy, the abuse of the material world in favour of a non-material world. What part of us favours one above the other? The ego in control. How abusive can the controlling ego be to energy as a whole? Your enlightened self, or as I prefer being, doesn't desire to be of one or the other, especially one over and above the other, it is what it is, nothing more, nothing less. In truth, there are no perceptions or perspectives of one being above the other in this state, it is simply ego and non-ego, abuse of energy or working in unison with energy. Imagine for one moment working in unison and in harmony with energy as a whole, this includes everything the ego has deemed to be negative or toxic!! I cannot express in words what would occur in this case, the egos perception of nirvana or unconditional love doesn't even come close.

Are people like me in counteraction against the abuse of energy? If a lot of people weren't even trying to become less abusive to energy as a whole, there would be no reaction from people like me. There is no point in awakening a controlling ego hell bent on ignorance, to try this would be a counterreaction but this is not the case. All we are trying to do is assist or guide an ego that is trying to become less abusive to energy, in other words our reaction is simply to do with their egos making an effort to help itself from being so abusive to energy. There is no way that people like me desire to assist a controlling ego who only desires to exist with its own natural environment. Yes, abusing energy is of a natural occurrence to a controlling ego. At no point to the egoless self is this perceived as being below the stature of the egoless self, it is what it is, an existence that can be experienced or not by the soul. Of course a soul that is humbling, humbling itself to the controlling egos environment is not a problem.

Who reads my material, is it an ego in control or an ego aware of it's enlightened self in some way, even subconsciously? The answer is too obvious to me for you are the one's I write for as well as myself, in actuality I probably write more for myself for I am definitely not alone.                     

Love -The Universal Answer!!

Written by Mathew Naismith

I do get some insightful people asking insightful questions at times, is not love the universal answer?

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Very good question Charlene, is love the universal answer? A question related to this is, is love the ultimate state? To refer to love being the universal answer is stating that love is the ultimate state to all other states. To perceive this takes the separation of energy, an ultimate state separate from all other states.

What part of us separates energy? Ego, for only through the ego can energy be separated into higher and lower forms of energy. The egoless self perceives no separation for there is no separation in this state therefore no universal answer or ultimate state, it is simply energy or if you like of God.  

Yes, to the ego that is aware there is a perceived universal answer therefore an ultimate state above all other states. This is how the ego in control works, there has to be an ultimate state of pleasure for the pleasure of the ego.

Also, everyone has a different perception of what love is, even unconditional love. How many multinationals have an absolute unconditional love of power and money, they will do anything to acquire this, even to the extent of destroying the planet. This is purely unconditional, where even the conditions of the planet are ignored. In truth, there is no difference between unconditional love of spiritually aware people and multinational, it is all to do with serving the ego in control, for it's all to do with what makes us feel good. Pleasing the ego above all else no matter what.

I know this is hard to perceive but all of what is, is the ultimate state, in a sense, to the egoless self. Yes, as our egos become aware, our ego will feel powerful feelings of love, what the ego does with this from then on will make a difference. The ego out of control will often only desire to see this state as being some ultimate state, above all other states. What occurs most often in this state? The separation of our egos from anything negative, negative to our egos feeling good, it is all about the pleasure of our controlling egos.

I can be in any environment and still feel blissful, as a lot of us are at present within this kind of chaotic reality. This isn't because of separating good from bad, positive from negative, like a lot of people are trying to do to sustain this state, it is to do with humbling myself to the negatives as of the positives without separation or desire. I don't have a desire to be only of positive or of an ultimate state; all I try to express is balance and a state of the absence of the abuse of energy. If the rest of my environment is not of my own or accepting of my environment, so be it, it is what it is.

Yes, without effort, the ego can find itself in a loving blissful environment, at no time in this environment is this state perceived as an ultimate state or universal answer, it is simply a state of the absence of the abuse of energy. Of course to the ego that is experiencing the abuse of energy, this state of the absence of the abuse of energy will seem like an ultimate state.

Sorry Charlene for such a long answer.

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We do this so often, anything that makes the ego feel more powerful, secure and makes us feel good inside, is often given some kind of God status, an absolute state of desire. As money and power are given a God status by materialists, unconditional love is given a God status by various western spiritually aware people. What is with this God status in relation to unconditional love, especially considering unconditional love is a very small part of the process of becoming aware? They are still fumbling in the dark for they obviously know not what they do. Is this because our egos so often attaches itself to a God like status symbol? All other awareness to this God status symbol is negative and should be denounced in some way, even when the awareness comes from actual experiences and occurrences!! Actually, any awareness that goes beyond a God status symbol is often scorned the most, especially if supported with actual experiences, occurrences and supporting data.

This is like the perception of good battling it out with evil, this is clearly an ego perception of good against bad. Good in this case is given a God like status symbol by the ego. Evil simply cannot exist within the presence of good, a pure aware state or a state of God. Good in this case simply means awareness compared to ignorance. Evil, being bad, is simply a state of ignorance; imagine how a state of deliberate ignorance would react to a state of pure awareness. There is no battle for only the ego can battle itself out with itself, in other words go to war with itself. To the ego, there is a good and bad for only can the ego separate energy like this. What you have in this case is a partially aware consciousness battling it out with an ignorant conciseness. Of course only being particularly aware means we are still abusing energy, this of course, to the ego, means we are only partially good.

Look at this way, once you become aware, how hard is it to then become unaware? The only way to become unaware is to manipulate energy, in other words abuse energy to serve a desired state, or, to create a God like status symbol that keeps us unaware of anything more. I have experienced this myself, evil, in other words ignorance, cannot exist within the presence of a state of pure awareness, unless the state of pure awareness is manipulated. Of course being aware to this degree is the awareness of how energy is manipulated, as a lot of people today are obviously aware. Yes, conscious states of ignorance are at war with the good, but, a pure state of awareness is not at war with ignorance (evil). If the ego has to perceive a God like status symbol, like unconditional love, let it be a state of pure awareness instead, or if you like, a true state of God for ignorance has no status in this state.

Unlimiting Consciousness

Written by Mathew Naismith

I was asked recently about my thoughts on Buddhism, the following was my reply.  

There are different variants of Buddhism. I don't hold to that one ideology is the answer for everyone for there is never one answer to anything.

Buddhism has its boundaries or doctrines as of any ideology or ism, I am not myself into limiting my consciousness like this. "All else other than the ultimate state of pure awareness or nothingness is an illusion", I don't myself limit my consciousness to these perspectives or perceptions. In saying this, Buddhism teaches one to cope better in an ego created reality, as a lot of ideologies do.

I find that Taoism and Hinduism are far less limiting, of course this depends on how you use these ideologies. I prefer Buddhism to materialism or westernized atheism myself. I should also say that materialism and atheism have their place as well. How many people would have starved to death if it wasn't for materialism? Materialism has given us more soul experiences to be experienced, however, when materialism is abused and misused, it becomes too destructive when not balanced out with the likes of Buddhism or spirituality as a whole.

You see, to me there is never one answer or absolute state.

I wrote the following to someone in relation to the year being an emotional rollercoaster.

It is only as bad as we make it, why give it any more energy that it's worth? Learn from it and move on, of course at times easier said that done. I often look at it this way these days, it is what it is, nothing more, nothing less. As soon as we get into the negatives and positives, it's always more that it should be.

How often do we allow ideologies and isms to limit our consciousness? Probably the same amount we limit our own consciousness to certain specifics like positives and negatives, or, what is real and what is an illusion. Is Buddhism limiting consciousness to certain specifics? As of any ideology or ism, it is the way we use Buddhism that is limiting. As soon as we limit ideologies or isms to certain specifics, we are abusing energy as energy itself is of unlimited potentiality. It is like constricting energy to a certain space where motion is restricted to certain motions only. Often any motion outside these restricted boundaries is usually referred to as something negative and subsequently dealt with. Materialism, like religion or any other ideology, is fine when in balance within the environment that supports materialism. When used out of balance with the natural environment, abuse of energy is created and often accepted by the abusers, in other words we become conditioned to abusing energy through limiting it's potentiality to certain specifics, often to primarily serve the ego.

It is the same old story, if energy doesn't serve the elite, the ego in control, it is dealt with, usually discarded as something negative or illusionary. The elite can be a multinational but it can also be of people who try to be only of an elite or absolute state of being. An elite state of being in Buddhism is egoless, a state of pure awareness or nothingness, the funny thing is, once of this state, perceptions of negatives and positives, what is real and what is not real are absent, everything becomes what it is, nothing more, nothing less.

In a state in the absence of the ego, there is no negative and positive, what is an illusion and what is real, because there is no separation of energy in an egoless state, only through the ego can separation be perceived and put into motion. Look at it like this, as soon as you separate energy, energy becomes of motion, of the ego, of course separation of energy can only be implemented through the ego. This means the separation of energy to what is positive and negative, what is real and what is an illusion, is of the state of ego but a state that has always existed as well.

Once you get an imbalance of ego and egolessness, motion and motionlessness, through separation of energy is when an abuse of energy is often created. How many of us only desire to be of an elite state or status, where all else is discarded in one way or another thus creating a reality of abuse of energy? Who desires to be subservient or inferior to an elite status? The ego in control always desires to be of an elite status thus creating an imbalance in energy as of any separation of energy can. Yes, separate energy but be wise in how you separate energy, try to avoid abusing energy when separating energy. Balance is indeed the key here.  

I am subservient to the environment that is presently supporting my being, I would not have it any other way, accept to balance out my existence with the environment my existence is existing in and my ego (soul) is experiencing. As there is nothing wrong or negative with the ego or even the ego in control, there is nothing wrong with materialism. However, as it is of the way we use ideologies and isms, as soon as we become abusive to energy, we create a reality in line with this abuse. Try to remember, the only part of us that can see a wrong or negative in the ego and materialism, is the ego in control. There isn't even a wrong in being abusive, it's just being excessively abusive in the way we manipulate energy isn't a wise thing to do, not if we want to live in peace and harmony.

In all, it is what it is when we choose to abuse energy, nothing more, nothing less.......               

No One is Unenlightened!!

Written by Mathew Naismith

This post is not about the age of enlightenment or reason, an age of reason and individualism, but about spiritual enlightenment where one advocates egolessness over ego. Spiritual enlightenment is a state of the absence of ego. It is often a state most egos fear to tread, usually in fear of the egos demise and all that the ego creates. In an enlightened state, all that the ego creates is simply becomes awareness, this is why this state is often referred to as a state of pure awareness and even wisdom or if you like, a state of God.

Don't mistaken spiritual enlightenment with the egos expressions of wisdom either, where wisdom is often associated with knowledge and learning. In a true enlightened state, knowledge and learning give way to a pure state of awareness and wisdom. Yes, we even have to give up our accumulated knowledge and learning, for in an enlightened state nothing can be owned or accumulated. This also means giving up the teachings of ideologies and isms, for spiritual ideologies are only of existence to serve and teach the ego about its egoless self or being. This by the way is most important if conducted in a non-abusive manner.

Make no mistake, the ego is unable to experience a true enlightened state, for an enlightened state is of the absence of ego, a state not accessible to the ego. However, this doesn't mean that the ego can't feel enlightenment as opposed to becoming enlightenment. Yes, the ego can experience enlightenment but only through feelings, not through an actual state of being enlightened, be aware though, the ego in control will try to convince you otherwise. Yes, these feelings can become a physical and mental reality, be wary though, feelings are of the ego and can become very controlling to the extent of a desire to feel good all the time. All else not fuelling these desired feelings are often critically judged as being negative or even toxic in some way.

Also, to the dislike of the ego, unconditional love is not experienced or felt in an enlightened state, for all feelings of love are of the ego. If you can feel instead of being love, it is of the ego. Yes, you can experience an enlightened state and get a feeling of unconditional love but it is your ego that is feeling love, not the egoless part of yourself. Of course feeling a true sense of unconditional love is most constructive to what the ego creates, this is instead of being destructive. Be aware, a true expression of unconditional love will embrace the negatives in the same way this state embraces the positives. In all, the ego beautifies unconditional love but only when being of this love as opposed to simply feeling this love.    

Make no mistake, no one is unenlightened. I will put it this way, which a lot of people's egos won't like, once of God, always of God, or, once of energy, always of energy. Remember, you can't destroy energy but you can transform energy. Our enlightened being is simply transformed into another energy form or expression by the ego, this is all. Most often in the process, only that which serves the ego is acknowledged, all else is denounced by the ego to serve only the ego part of our whole being. I cannot express this strongly enough, no one is truly unenlightened.

Please note; most of what I have written here comes from my own experiences, at no time take what is written here to be gospel or of an unequivocal truth for all.      

The Soul and True Nirvana/Heaven

Written by Mathew Naismith

It is often said that the soul is having a human experience; this is instead of the soul having a soul experience. The human experience becomes primary to the soul having an experience. When everything we humanly experience and express is reflective upon the soul, I think it doesn't matter what our soul is experiencing, it is still primarily to do with the soul having the experience. Also, the soul itself doesn't separate one experience from another, it's still an experience. It is like the soul doesn't observe or experience each life lived as a separate entity or life; it is one life lives with different experiences experienced.

If you can't remember experiencing your own soul and other souls, projecting from the soul is going to be hard to do humanly; this is why a lot of ideologies make reference to the soul. "If you are not righteous in human life, this will reflect on your soul." This isn't scaremongering, it is the obvious truth observed and experienced by the soul. It is a soul projection trying to guide the human self to refrain from abusing energy as a whole. How often is, for example, Christianity and Hinduism these days shown disdain because they state what is obvious to the soul? "Refrain from abuse of energy in human life or suffer the consequences", is simply a guide for the human self otherwise the soul will suffer. Yes, the soul can become dark, in other words become ignorant to serve the ego in control.

Can a soul in deliberate ignorance (dark) only observe that we live separate lives, unlike how the soul projects it as one life lived with different experiences to be experienced? Yes, the soul itself can become this unaware through serving the ego for only through the ego can separation and abuse of energy occur. However, the only way the ego is going to comprehend anything beyond its own self, is to relate to each soul experience as being a separate entity to start with, for only the ego comprehends separate entities. This is the same as saying that the soul is having a human experience, when the soul sees it as the soul simply having a soul experience. Of course a soul that is conditioned to separating everything, will only desire to see it as many lives lived, however, as you can condition the soul to become dark (ignorant), you can also condition the soul to become light (aware). To do this one must separate energy, for the egos sake, to once again unite energy as many spiritual ideologies guide us to do.

Yes, the human self has to first see that we live many lives separate to each other to be able to then observe through a souls perspective, that there is only one life lived. It is a big deal to start with when the ego comprehends the soul, an entity not separate to the ego but often more aware than the ego. For the ego to go beyond its own awareness is astonishing, especially when you consider the abusive environment the ego has to cope with. Think on this, would not an ego in control deliberately condition the soul to primarily serve the ego, to only be of a controlling ego? I have personally experienced souls just like this; they simply didn't want to know anymore than their egos allowed them to.

As an aware soul is able to comprehend mortal egoistic existences, an aware soul is also able to comprehend immortal egoless states of being. A state, as opposed to states, where everything is just is which is the same state as pure awareness, oneness, nirvana/heaven or a state of God. I often myself touch on this state as the ego can only do. Yes, to the ego this state, what ever your ideology calls it, is an utterly beautiful state of being. This egoless state doesn't see or feel its own beauty for only through the ego is love and beauty appreciated. The problem of the ego expressing appreciation in this way is the ego in control often distorts and fragments this energy of appreciation. The appreciation of having to feel good takes over from the simple appreciation of the beauty of this state, this state then often becomes to the service of the controlling ego, to primarily feel good as much as possible no matter what. The separation of what is real and what is an illusion, what is negative and what is positive, what is wrong and what is right and so forth, becomes a priority to the ego in control to feel good as much as possible. All else from feeling good then becomes negative or even toxic.

Make no mistake, empathic people, people who are sensitive to other vibrations, often feel uneasy around vibrations not of their own. Just because it's not of our own vibration doesn't mean its negative just because it doesn't make us feel good. Yes, life has become all about us feeling good making all else some kind of negative. Of course in this state we will feel bad vibrations, vibrations that don't make us feel good. Did Jesus or Buddha, for example, avoid and ostracise every other vibration not of their own? They in actuality embraced all vibrations as of their own. You see in this state of nirvana/heaven, there is no feeling of bad or good vibrations; it is in actuality impossible to do so in this state. In a state of the absence of ego everything simply becomes just is. Of course in a state of the presence of ego we have individual souls and separate individual expressions of energy. Is a state of nirvana more worthy to be in and real than states of suffering/hell? The ego in control would state most definitely but the egoless state states there is no separation therefore no nirvana or suffering, heaven or hell, for to perceive this would be of the controlling ego.

However, to the ego there is an obvious nirvana and suffering, heaven and hell, the ego feels it and experiences it so they must exist but only to and through the ego. There is simply no separation of energy in a state of nirvana. I suppose one needs to experience this state in some way or become aware of this state through an ideology to realise this.

So is it really a human experience the soul is experiencing or is it the soul experiencing a soul experience? It really has to do with the way the existence or state a soul is conditioned to. For the ego, the soul is having a human experience. To the egoless state, it is all to do with the soul having an experience or being in a certain state. Try to remember, the ego is unable to experience a state of nirvana, a state of the absence of ego. All the ego can do is feel what this state is like, but so often it's these feel good feelings that take over us, often to the root of our soul. We then primarily focus on feeling good, in accordance with our desires, and then all else often becomes a negative as we are seeing so often today.

In truth, it is all about the soul so try not to avoid abusing energy as much as you can. Remember though, you may not always be able to avoid this, try not to allow the ego to make a big deal of this for it is what it is, end of story. Also, in a state of ego, especially a state controlled by the ego, never expect, demand or desire to feel good all the time, this is highly impractical, however, touching on a state of true nirvana/heaven can make a life experience a lot less about suffering/hell thus conditioning your soul to Nirvana/Heaven.  

Beyond the Teachers Teachings

Written by Mathew Naismith

Yes of course, a teacher who is truly being a teacher would want their students to surpass their teachings; my mistake is I wagged school a lot which made going to college interesting to say the least. Note; wagging school is to do with not going to school at times. This has made my life interesting and harder to live within an environment conducive to a high level of education.

Are not a lot of us wagging school, not learning from our greatest teacher's, isms, ideologies and our natural environment? How many of us desire to learn to live within our natural environment, the very same environment that supports our existence? How many of us are surpassing the teachers like isms and ideologies? Yes, isms and ideologies are our teachers that we should learn to surpass. Many isms and ideologies teach us about existences beyond our present environment, even the 3rd dimensional environment. How many of us are wagging these classes, or, abusing the teachings in these classes by using these isms and ideologies in an abusive way? And we wonder why the world is the way it is, and why it will stay that way or get worse!!

Most of us are conditioned from birth to only be aware of our immediate environment, making comprehension of any other environment most difficult. Most of us don't even know much about the 3rd dimensional environment, being that we still know little about the universe. How many advanced beings in the universe are we aware of? Many of us are still theorising how the universe was created, this is while many isms and ideologies teach us about environments way beyond 3rd dimensional aspects. Mind boggling isn't it!!

I was once in a state that I could ask any question and an immediate correct answer would come to me. This was quite natural to do in this state, a state that goes beyond most teacher's teachings, beyond most isms and ideologies teachings. Any of us at any time can enter into this state. I of course recently discovered this to be a true state through the teaching's of Hinduism. Please note; I am not advocating Hinduism, it's that I have no bias of any teachings therefore I learn from all teachings. The state I was in was only the tip of the iceberg as many isms and ideologies teach. How many of us are wagging these classes, or, abusing the knowledge from these classes? And we wonder why the reality is presently where it is at!!

To teach without wisdom is not teaching, it is simply telling. And to learn without the guidance of wisdom is not learning, it is simply listening of the absence of being what is being taught........M G Naismith

The Soul Experience

Written by Mathew Naismith

Yes, as of a human experience there is also a soul experience, it is really wise not to separate the human experience from the soul experience. Actually, it is wise not to separate the human or soul experience from any other experience or motion. In other words it is wise not to separate yourself from the environment as a whole; there should be no exclusions no matter what the ego dictates. 

Soul: The immaterial part of a person; the actuating cause of an individual life

Actuating refers to motion; which means the soul is the motion behind each person, without the soul there is no actuation therefore motion. So what about the rest of existence that is of motion, does everything of motion have a soul? To answer this we must now look at the spirit. 

Spirit: The vital principle or animating force within living things

I actually don't concur with this, that the spirit is just of living things. To me the spirit is of all things, this is the same in that energy is of all things. Spirit = energy which = motion. So what about motionlessness, a state where energy or the spirit within all things is motionless, is not the spirit, therefore energy, apart of a motionless state?

The soul experience, as of the human experience, is simply an experience. The spirit on the other hand isn't an experience but of all of what is as of energy. So no, to answer the first question, not everything has a soul but the soul is still of the spirit. To someone like me, everything is alive. I wrote some time ago about vibrations alive, in that all motion creates vibrations which make all motions alive in one way or another. The ego only comprehends what is alive and what isn't alive in accordance with the egos perception of what is alive and what isn't. It is wise not to listen to the ego which is often bias. Bias of course only creates ignorance, the deliberate unknowingness of something the ego doesn't desire to become aware of, usually in accordance with the souls experiences and human ideologies and isms.

The spirit can be of both motion and motionlessness, there are no limitations to the spirit as of the soul. Yes, soul experiences are indeed infinite in nature, where infinite experiences can be experienced by the soul, however, the soul cannot experience a state of motionlessness for motionlessness is not an experiences. It is simply being or not being, which ever your soul relates to the best.

Now, is this being or not being also of energy therefore spirit? Our egos often perceive that energy has to be of motion to exist therefore motionlessness (just being) is not of the spirit!!

Why do we become more aware or more enlightened as we lesson our motions? It is too obvious that the more of motion or the ego we are not expressive of, the more aware we become. Of course the more motion we express, the less aware be become, this is course includes the soul. This is why this just being or not being, this motionless state, is stated as being of pure awareness. Now if we become more aware the less motion we express, how alive and of energy therefore spirit is this motionless state of just being? When we so-call die, we can have a sense of being more alive, of course if our soul is controlled or primarily of the ego, the soul will have more of a sense of death. A sense of death simply represents the demise of life, a life the soul's ego is attached to, this is why it is wise to be aware of the tricks the ego can play on us, the illusions the ego can create.

My mother so-called died a while back, at no time did my ego mourn her death, even though my ego tried to. My mother was more alive than ever, but only after I helped her out of a dark tunnel. My mother was unable to go on as her life on Earth was still not at ease. My mother was never happy in the way she led her life, so after her bodily demise, my mother had huge regrets. My mother wanted to be forgiven but I didn't do this, I didn't feel I had to for there was nothing to forgive. I said to my mother," It is okay, life is what it is, no more, no less, I have no regrets and neither should you."

What a lot of people forget it is a soul experience, the human experiences dies but life is not about the human experience but the soul experience. You could say that the human experience doesn't matter then as the human experience is simply a vessel for the soul to experience life experiences through. A lot of souls live like this as this is all they know, however, to a soul that is aware, the human experience does matter. Remember, the soul is simply an immaterial part of a person, what we do in life reflects back on the soul in one way or another.

In regards to the soul and the human experience, I am simply humbling myself to the ego, to the human experience of attachments. However, the human ego that is trying to dispel the ego altogether is actually being more of the ego, for only the ego desires to dispel itself so it can no longer humble itself to itself. The egoless self has no desire or need to dispel the ego in any sense; the ego is what it is, no more, no less. To comprehend this you must look at this from a soul perspective, not a human perspective. It is primarily a soul experience, the human experience is simply a vessel for the soul to experience motion (life) through. Humanly, think very carefully what you are conditioning your soul to and yes, the way you lead your life does matter to the soul. Remember, the soul is simply an immaterial part of you, what you materially do reflects back on the soul, make no mistake about it. I suppose to really comprehend this, you must humanly experience some kind of after life experience or at least feel or know there to be a lot more to life than material life.