What I Am

Written by Mathew Naismith 

Many fear me for I am not what is expected.

I am all of what is but nothing simultaneously.

It is understandably difficult to comprehend me at the best of times.

My power and control is resolute and infinite in nature but at the same time I am neither powerful nor controlling.

What I am is difficult to say for within myself there is no need or desire to know what I am.

I am just being within what is expected but at the same time being what isn't expected.

The ego is of me but not of me simultaneously as I am of motion and motionlessness.

The ego sees me as something grandiose and all powerful; all I see of me is everything but nothing.

To the ego, I am it's higher self. To me, I am no higher than everything I am which is everything.

Is being everything without exception of a higher stature for the ego to aspire to?

Only the ego can answer this for only the ego aspires towards anything when we are already everything. Of course the ego only desires to be what it desires to be which is a very tiny part of everything!!

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We would simply be lying to ourselves if we said we are not in fear of ourselves, for only the ego is of the ego in fear of itself. The ego expects one thing only, ego, nothing more and nothing less is expected, just simply ego. Fear simply does not exist past the ego, so to be in fear of the unexpected is ego in fear of itself. It's the expected that gives the ego it's fear of the unexpected for only can the ego control what is expected.

Being in a state of pure awareness is being of everything without exception. In this state we are being all of what is but in the process being nothing, only in the perception of the separation of everything can being everything not be of nothing. What happens when yin and yang act as one? Nothing. What then happens when yin and yang act as two? Everything, we are therefore simultaneously everything but nothing because yin and yang always act as one as well as two.

Now how do we, the ego, comprehend that we are everything and nothing at the same time? The ego simply can't comprehend anything beyond the ego, so nothing can't exist for the ego but it does. When you can truly comprehend a state of pure awareness, you are at that point being everything but also nothing for only in separation is there something. There is absolutely no separation within this pure aware state; everything simply becomes nothing, as one instead of two.

Only when we perceive we are everything is when the ego is all powerful and controlling, the ego often aspires to this higher level. However, when we are also able to perceive this everything is also nothing, only at this point are we aware that their no control or power to be had, there is simply no need.

The ego expects to have a need of power and control. The unexpected simply has no need of such things for the ego is unable to control the unexpected, only when the unexpected becomes the expected is there a need for power and control. How do you control nothing? This is why the ego is in fear of itself, for only in ego can fear exist; control and fear simply can't exist without each other and neither can the ego. The ego doesn't actually fear nothingness or the unexpected, it actually fears itself.

So what am I? We are simultaneously everything but nothing, of course the ego will understandably have problems comprehending this as always..........    

Releasing Ourselves from Limitations

Written by Mathew Naismith

This post is a follow on from my last post, Pleasure Centres of the Mind. If your ego didn't like the last post, it is unlikely the ego will like this post. Put simply, the ego doesn't like anything that doesn't' excite the pleasure centre within a reality based on pleasures. Let's be honest with ourselves here, everything, including spirituality these days, is based on positive vibrations as opposed to negative vibrations, in other words what pleases the senses is positive, what doesn't is negative.

This is too obvious for people like me. I have become involved in numerous spiritual based forums in the last 8 (eight) years, too often has spirituality been based purely on what pleases the pleasure centre of the mind, the ego. This of course takes one to ignore and even denounce anything that vaguely threatens what pleases the pleasure centre of the mind. Most of the forums I have been involved in have either removed me from the forum or I removed myself from the forum. When you realise you are upsetting people's ego to no end, there is no point in continuing being involved.

Once our pleasure senses have been tantalised, anything that vaguely threatens this pleasure is denounced or ostracised. What seemed to have occurred is that spirituality is purely based on fear, while at the same time denouncing religion for being based on fear. This has been proven to me over and over again on most of these forums; people literally show fear of their own pleasures being threatened in any sense simply through their own actions. I should also point out I am still involved in certain forums/groups to one degree or another, probably because the people on these forums don't seem to see people like me as a threat.

Are people like me a threat to the control the ego has over other people?

Yes, to the ego, people like me seem to be a threat to it's existence, the truth is, people like me are only a threat to the control the ego has over people, not to the ego own existence. In actuality, only the ego can experience a sensation of being threatened, people like me are not even a threat to the control the ego has over other people, for only the ego can experience threatening sensations. What I am saying is, only can the ego become a threat to itself, this simply occurs when the ego awakes to itself for only the ego can control ego. People like me are not about control but the ego will perceive that we are, especially when the pleasure centre is threatened in any sense.

I have found it quite amusing over my time on these forums, I have also found it saddening that once again so many people are using spirituality to obtain and maintain a certain level of pleasure. This of course takes one to become deliberately unaware of anything that threatens these pleasurable experiences. Firstly, where is the oneness in this and secondly, it is obvious that such blatant ignorance will not lead to a state of pure awareness, pure bliss.

Bliss is not obtained through insurmountable conditions; bliss can only be obtained through putting no conditions on anything and become all of what is.

As I have personally experienced on most forums, you are not allowed to express anything that seems to threaten the control the ego has over the pleasure centre in any sense. So many people are putting more conditions on themselves and others, not less, to protect the control of the ego has over the pleasure centre of the mind. What do these insurmountable conditions denote? Limitations, this simply means we are limiting ourselves more, not less. I suppose this figures as more people these days seem to desire to be more control. How many conditions are there for someone to be in control? The more control we desire, the more conditions there are, of course the more control we experience or desire, the more conditions (limitations) we put on upon ourselves and others around us.

I will put it this way by using our present environment. A lot of people want to limit themselves to the light, of course this takes a lot of conditions (limitations) to obtain this in the first place. Would the Earth be as beautiful as it was if there wasn't a balance, a moderation, of light and dark? Now imagine the light controlling the dark through it's own conditions, it's own limitations, how beautiful would have the Earth been then? How beautiful is the universe with it's insurmountable contrasts of light and dark?  

The light tantalises our pleasure centre when the dark threatens our pleasure centre, but what would the light create void of the dark, the yin void of the yang? The Earth as it was simply couldn't have existed under such conditions, such limitations, and what a shame that would have been for the ego not to have experienced!!  

Pleasure Centres of the Mind

Written by Mathew Naismith

As the following explains, the pleasure centre is a part of the brain that gives us a feeling of enjoyment; this enjoyment is often referred to by the ego as a positive. Of course we can become so addicted to this enjoyment that we, the ego, will most often refer to everything that isn't of this enjoyment as being negative and even toxic; this is why in Western spirituality that there are more judged negatives at present than ever. Yes, to be honest, a lot of us are in this state.

Let's say we are into light and love or materialism or anything else that excites our pleasure centre. Everything else other than what excites our pleasure centre often becomes negative or we deliberately become ignorant to the things that don't excite our pleasure centre. What people like me write about is often critically judged as being negative and even toxic, mainly because it doesn't excite the pleasure centre, in actuality, awareness often takes away the enjoyment from our pleasure centre. Let's be honest, we are presently just as much if not more focused on what enjoyment our pleasure centre gives us than ever throughout human history.          

http://health.howstuffworks.com/sexual-health/sexuality/brain-during-orgasm2.htm

Extract: You may have heard that the brain has a pleasure center that lets us know when something is enjoyable and reinforces the desire for us to perform the same pleasurable action again. This is also called the reward circuit, which includes all kinds of pleasure, from sex to laughter to certain types of drug use.

How many Western spiritually minded people deliberately ignore everything around them that doesn't give enjoyment to the pleasure centre these days? Now, how often is everything not conducive to the enjoyment of the pleasure centre critically judged as being negative and even toxic?

Let's say I am an empath, a person who feels their environment, is everything that doesn't excite my pleasure centre negative? No, but to a lot of empaths and spiritually aware people this has become the case it would seem. To be truly spiritually aware, of a state that Buddhism calls pure awareness, a state of pure bliss to the ego, everything that doesn't excite the pleasure centre of our mind isn't negative or bad. Just because the feelings we get don't excite our pleasure centre, doesn't mean it's negative, it simply means it doesn't excite our pleasure centre. Of course the pleasure centre being about pleasure, the pleasure centre is often controlled by the ego, not just of the ego but controlled by the ego, it is wise to become aware of this in my mind.

Yes, as of any time in human history, we are controlled by the ego, meaning, the ego is in control of our reality just as much if not more than any other time in human history. Let's be honest with ourselves, it's presently all about exciting our pleasure centre while deliberately staying ignorant to anything that threatens the pleasure centres enjoyment. In actuality, lets' be truthfully honest even more, we are living more in fear than ever in regards to Westernised spirituality.

        

A state of pure awareness means we become aware of everything, not just to the things our pleasure centre desires. If I was to only become aware of the things that excite my pleasure centre, would I be truly and honestly spiritually aware? This state of pure awareness has nothing to do with exciting the pleasure centre, and that everything else that doesn't excite this pleasure centre is negative. Are we truly going to experience the kind of bliss found in this state of absolute pure awareness by only being aware of the things that excite our pleasure centre? There is absolutely no infinite bliss to be found in continually exciting the pleasure centre because the pleasure centre is pure ego, not pure awareness. Yes, we will find that by exciting the pleasure centre we will momentarily feel blissful and happy, of course the ego being the ego, it always desires more and more excitement, more and more pleasure.

Being truly spiritually aware has nothing to do with continually exciting the pleasure centre. Considering that to excite the pleasure centre all the time takes the deliberate ignorance of everything that doesn't excite the pleasure centre, this kind of state has nothing to do with awareness. There is no awareness in this, just pure and utter deliberate ignorance construed by the ego in control to keep the ego amused, happy and excited.

Can this state of pure awareness, a state where there is no separation and where one becomes one with everything void of the limitations of pleasing our pleasure centres, give us feelings of bliss and love? Going by my own experiences, I would say yes, but you must realise, it's only the ego that can feel pleasure, for it's only the ego that needs to feel pleasure to exist. So in all, in our present state of ego, we will feel pleasure, however, it is wise to be aware that it's the ego in control that desires to be only aware of what excites it's pleasure centre, not just of the physical brain but of the non-physical mind as well.

As usual, what I have written here will not excite too many people's pleasure centres, the actual truth about ourselves as a whole rarely does. Please, be aware that a true state of awareness isn't all about pleasing our pleasure centres, of course the ego in control will, as always, state otherwise. Simply, don't allow your pleasure centre, the ego; to control you while becoming truly aware as opposed to partially aware of what pleases the pleasure centre that is apart of  us all. Be aware that (all) pleasures felt are of the ego, also, don't try to control the ego and it's pleasure centre, but don't allow it to control you either.     

The Book of Life

Written by Mathew Naismith

I am presently trying to assist the painter in painting our house

I am at present reminded of the time at school when the pencil/pen would simply drop from my hand. I remember while doing exams that I was incapable of picking up the pencil/pen; I of course was simply physically incapable of finishing exams way back then.

The moral to the story is, accomplishing anything physical for me is a huge accomplishment, especially these days. You simply cannot tell a book by it's cover when the cover is only a preview of what really is within the book itself.

The cover shows I don't take painkillers, this means in accordance to our own book I am not in trauma, certainly not as in as much trauma as people who do take painkillers. I also try to do things without complaint. The cover simply does not tell the whole story or even one part of the story, the cover is what it is, a cover for the story, nothing more.

Does a crippled up body from an accident or a stroke tell the true story of a person?

You simply cannot tell a book by it's cover but many people do, in actuality, a lot of people mistakenly read the cover and perceive that they have now read the book.

Life as whole is like this. The cover shows all we are is of physicality when the book itself tells us so much more, but only if we are willing to desist in perceiving what the cover tells us what the story as a whole is all about..........

I have had a chronic injury since I was six (6) years old. Because of my awareness and connectedness to the book itself instead of the physical cover of the book, I was able to do things in life that I was suppose to be physically incapable of doing. There is simply so much more to the book than it's cover. The cover is limiting, the book itself isn't.

On face value there is a message in what is written here, however, deeper down there is another message, one is of the cover, the other of the book itself. We can either perceive awareness by it's cover or be of awareness by reading the book itself, preferably before we perceive what the book is all about in accordance with it's cover.

Yes, the cover tells one story, the book another, which one do we really want to live life by!!             

Existing by Past and Future Events

Written by Mathew Naismith

This post is obviously going to be a follow on from my last post. In the seven (7) odd years of sharing my insights and changelings through blogs, I have never really touched on (written) this subject before, probably because I seem to exist and create my own reality from the present rather than from past and/or future events. Yes, people like me are guided by past and predicted future events, but we never base our present existence on past and/or future events.

Conditioning: Consider this, why base our present on predicted future events, either constructively or destructively? It's all to do with fear. If we predominantly focus on a predicted bright secure future, we do this out of fear of the present. This makes sense to a fearful person to do this because the present is anything but secure, so to obtain a sense of security, we predominantly focus on a predicted secure future. The same is with focusing on an insecure future, like the end of the world for example; it's all based on fear. So why not just focus on the present and not mention about past or future events? Many of us are simply not aware of what we are doing. Instead of moving away or evolving (ascending) from an existence based on fear, we are escalating further into fear at a phenomenal rate.    

As we are conditioned to time, we are also conditioned to fear, this doesn't mean that time is based on fear though, it means that within time fear can be experienced or not. As time is all about starting and ending points, we can either go with the flow of these starting and ending points, either it be of actual life and death, rich and poor, hungry and satisfied, which is of fearlessness, or we can try to go against the flow which is fearful. I do find that the Western mind is more fearful than the Eastern mind, probably because the Eastern mind from birth was once conditioned to go with the flow where the Western mind is conditioned to go against the flow; of course this is just my opinion.

Western Mind: How many Western minded people take on, become aware of, Eastern practices like living in the present but still predominantly base this present on a predicted future event? When an Eastern mind takes on living within the present, they don't base this on some predicted future event, like so many western minded people obviously do today, they predominately focus on the present while only being guided by the past and future.

Yes, as the world becomes more predominately of the western mind, we will experience more of a reality based on fear. How many people fear looking old today or fear losing some material possessions? Yes, this kind of fear, to one extent or another, has been around forever as the Western mind is not just of Western people, it's of all people. I today relate materialism to the Western mind as most western people are conditioned from birth to materialism, especially these days. Materialism is purely based on fear, the fear of not having enough to the fear of not having it at all.

It is too obvious to people like me that we are presently using the past and the future to create the present instead of using them as a guide. The ironical thing is that the past and the future is unable to exist without the present, everything relies purely on the present, instead of this, we are conditioned to believe everything is created from past and future events. The present is of and created from past and/or future events, in my mind, this simply isn't the case, or more precisely, need not be the case.

Illusion: Is it an illusion that we base the present on past and future events? Seen as everything is of the present, I would say it's an illusion. Consider this, if we base the present on future events like many people are doing today, what then will create this predicted future? The act of becoming aware of a predicted future and living in the present of this predicted future, changes the flow that creates these predicted futures. There are far more predicted (prophesised) future events that haven't happened than have happened, could this be due to the fact we are tampering with these future events therefore changing their flow by simply being aware of them and living the present by them?

In my mind, we need to learn to use the past and future simply as a guide and not to create the present based predominantly on past and especially on future events. Leave the present alone to go with the natural flow of the present, within this, I believe that these prophesised predictions of security, peace and love will materialise, if not, we will change these predictions to anything else but of security, peace and love.

Manifestation: So if we focus on predicted future events of security, peace and love, will this not manifest this within the present? In my mind, absolutely not. The reason for this is simply based on that it's the present that creates everything, not a manifestation of a future event to influence (change) the present. Ask yourself honesty why you are looking for the future to change the present. The answer to this is fear of the insecurities of the present, so we try to manifest a present from a predicted brighter future? This is of course is instead of changing the present itself to something of security, peace and love.

We have not just judged but critically judged the present as something negative, something to have disdain for and fear, within this, we have based the present purely on some kind of favourable predicted future event. We simply don't want to work on the present as it is, it's too negative, so we try to change the present based on a more favourable future event. When everything is created from the very present, this seems a strange thing to do, base the present on future events, in the process, inadvertently changing these future events to something less favourable.

Inadvertently, by predominantly focusing on brighter predicted future events, we are creating the less favourable prophesised predictions instead in my mind. As soon as we base the present in anyway on fear, the outcome of this fear will naturally create something less favourable, in our case this simply means creating the less favourable prophesied predictions within the present.

If we all learnt to just simply be within the now (present), in my mind, all of what is favourably predicted would quite instantly materialise. Take away the effects of what a past and future, negative and positive, black and white, have upon us, all you are left with is the now, yin and yang as one.  

Only Within the Present

Written by Mathew Naismith

This is only my opinion, but be wary of anyone who is primarily focused on the future/past. I had a friend recently present something to me from another person that was supposed to be spectacular. Anyone guiding people while being primarily based on future events, in my mind, should be avoided at all costs, even if this includes ascension symptoms primarily based on future events. You will find that most, if not all, ascension symptoms are primarily based on predicted future events.

Yes, the future and the past will give us ascension symptoms if we are focused on the past and/or future. Now honestly try focusing on the present only, you will find that ascension symptoms simply don't and can't exist within the present. To have any kind of ascension symptom, there has to be a strong acknowledgment and focusing of ourselves of a past and/or future. Of course the more we focus on the now/present, the less symptoms we will have for a very good reason, ascensions symptoms need a past and /or future events to exist. Yes, ascension symptoms do exist because we simply allow a past and future to exist as our primary focus.

I wrote the following to my friend on this matter.

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OK, I am not too concerned about where we are going but how we are getting there which is in relation to the now. I find people like Aluna are more focused on the future than the now. Anyone focused primarily on the future/past, are obviously primarily of the illusion/ego. These people will often use various marketing ploys to keep themselves within the scheme of things, in the limelight.

These people often talk about judgment of others but how often are they themselves in critical judgment of others themselves? I am a good example of her, not just simple judgment but critical judgment. 

Also, why be so worried or focused on the future when the future is already written, secure?  It's a con; the ego has these people in its full control, this is too obvious.

Live within the present for all else is defined by the present only, for everything else but the present is an illusion.......Mathew G

How often are we guided to live within the present? Now, how many of us live by what we preach within living in the now? Too often we are primarily focused on the future which really doesn't exist. Aluna is obvious within being primarily focused on the future. Aluna is making a huge mistake in my mind; this is unless all Aluna desires is an audience.

Look for the people who are primarily focused on the future when the future is supposed to be secure in accordance within their beliefs/predictions. If the future is suppose to be so secure, why not then focus on the present when the future is already written and secure? It simply makes no sense when people like this are primarily focused on a secure future to an insecure present.

The past and future are already written but the present isn't....Mathew G

Consciousness isn't this limited to past and future events Glenys.

Be wary of anyone focusing primarily on the future Glenys. Our ascension symptoms seem to have everything to do with future events with these people, huge mistake in my mind.

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 Ok yep can see your point

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Now to a lot of people this might seem unfair or even toxic of me mentioning people who are guiding numerous other people further into the illusion, not away from the illusion. Yes, these people are ascending but ascending further into the illusion of time based realities of past and future events, not away from them. If it's acceptable to lead people further into the illusion, why isn't it accepted to point out how people are being misled? Everything is created from the present, not from some future predicted event and why put so much focus on a future that is secure when the present isn't secure? Would it not make more sense focusing on the present when it's the present that creates everything?   

Consider this, can a past and future exist without the present? Seen as all future and past events where first created from the present at that time, the answer is categorically no. Now, can the present exist without a future or past and the answer is definitely yes, but of course to anyone primarily of time based realities of past and future events, the perceptions of the present being able to exist void of a past and future is going to be incomprehensible, and understandably so.

As I have stated before, time itself has always existed, this also means so has a past and future, however within the present there is no starting or ending points, no past or future. Only within time can anything be created from a starting point including time itself, you simply can't create a starting point within the present without time also being present.

All this means is that time, therefore past and future events, have always existed, however, what we primarily focus on in the present creates the present. If we focus on the past and/or the future, this will be the present. If we focus on the now, the present, this will be the present. So the idea of focusing on a secure future seems to be the way to go as the future then becomes the present. However, while primarily focusing on a secure future, we are not being of the present which creates the future for which we are primarily refocusing on at present.

The illusion is that future events create the present when they simply don't. Many of us are sadly being guided down this very road by others who are simply living for the future instead of the now, the present, which create future perception of future events. Yes, we can exist by creating our present from future events but it's simply not advisable, mainly due to the future is anything but secure and is limited to certain events. Being that time therefore past and future existence is limited by starting and ending points, it's a bit silly to continue to limit our own potential in this way. The present is simply limitless within it's motions where's a past and future is highly limited to certain events, do we won't or need to continue to limit ourselves to time based realities?

Yes, we can continue to delude ourselves in thinking that the future and past create the present when it's always the present that creates everything within it's entirety. No, there is nothing wrong in continuing to seemingly create the present from future events, but is it wise to do this, not just continue to do this but ascend even further into these delusions? 

To my readers, try to avoid anyone guiding other people who have based everything on future events, focus on the now is my best advice here. Security is created within the present, not the future for it's the present that writes the perceptions of the future. 

The following photo shows my Nephew Jimmy and me approximately 28 years ago. The photo event is of the past but the event itself is always of the now....... 

        

Acknowledgment and Appreciation

Written by Mathew Naismith

In a recent discussion, a person of the name of Ron mentioned about appreciating the natural energy flows around us. Ron brought up the question about, "But does all this really matter?" This question was in relation to being appreciative or not of the various different natural energy flows or footprints around us. Ron of course thought it matters and of course I concurred.  

Acknowledgment is one thing; appreciation of what is being acknowledged is another thing. I think this is simular to being aware or knowledgeable while being wise to know how to use this awareness or knowledge. How far and in what direction can we take our acknowledgment of the natural energy flows around us if we don't appreciate them? To me, this is the same as, what direction has our present knowledge void of wisdom has taken us? Ron is quite correct in my mind, an appreciation of our acknowledgment goes a long way and yes, it does matter as it makes a huge different to our journey.

As wisdom is important in guiding our awareness and knowledge, so is appreciation of guiding what we acknowledge, the appreciation of the natural energy flows or footprints surrounding us, not just acknowledgement void of appreciation. Take away wisdom from awareness and knowledge, what do you have? Something that is unguided. Take away appreciation of our acknowledgment of the natural energy flows around us, what are you left with? Something that is unguided, an energy flow of extremes expressions void of balance and moderation. What again are we presently experiencing? The destruction of what we acknowledge but don't appreciate, mother Earth it but one of many of these unappreciated energy flows.        

Acknowledgment of the spiritual is one thing; appreciation of the spiritual is quite something else.......

The following is my discussion with Ron if interested. 

              

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"Crystalline Consciousness: A lot of people's egos might laugh at this but we are connected to our physical environment more than most of us are aware of. It's by no mistake that we are attracted to certain crystals or minerals that other people aren't attracted to. In saying this, we can also be attracted to certain elements because that is what we need at the time to give us balance."

G'day Mathew.
Great truth in this paragraph, especially our vibrational or energetic connection with our natural world.

Leaving aside the ego for a minute.

Think we see things as solid because we are looking at them from a 3 dimensional point of view.

As we expand our consciousness or awareness allowing our DNA to change and be upgraded.

The body in which we live may begin to change into an energetic or crystalline physiology or form.

Feel we may well then see everything as physics is now beginning to appreciate.
In an energetic or vibrational point of view.

My Reply

Ah, this figures from you Ron as you also seem to believe that we, if we want that is, can or will evolve into a crystalline life force physiologically and consciously. 

I think it's the consciousness that defines our vibrations and subsequent form/physiology. Of course how aware a consciousness is has everything to do with this, maybe the less aware the consciousness, the more dense the matter.

I have the funny feeling the people who comprehend this, come from some kind of life force like this before experiencing a denser form of existence. 

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Interesting feeling that you have.
The impression of remembering the vibration or energy we exuded in a previous time, so to speak.

Being blessed with Mother Kundalini.
Personally feel she contributes and may even dictate this body's vibrational footprint.

But does all this really matter?
What matters is our appreciation of the vibrational message or energy we feel from ourselves and surrounding us in nature.

It is the shared energy in this Oneness as opposed to being separate, which to this heart, is so special.

Enjoy your weekend :-))

My Reply

Indeed Ron, very well articulated and a very good point. It certainly matter if we have an awareness and an appreciation, if we don't, we create realities like we are experiencing at present in my mind.  How many of us at present are truly aware and appreciative of this kind of energy flow?

I think what you have stated here needs to be shares around Ron, if you don't mind, I would like to insert our discussion here in a post on my blog.

I look at this way Ron, I am a guest to the present energy flow, I have no right to try to change this energy flow as a guest, however, I do have a right as a guest to be influential upon the energy flow of the host. The host being an energy flow of a controlling ego, our present existing reality.